I'm dead meat. DEAD MEAT. As i'm going to sit for MUET (Malaysian University English Test) either in fifth semester or might be soooooo lucky to sit for it in my really next sem. And of course , dah tumpul dah English yang Sha practice since primary dulu. Gelabah tok abah lah Sha! Dan Sha rasa dengan buku MUET yang Sha beli drpd Popular would not help that much. Kena asah asah asah lagi. So, ive decided. For my very first entry after a long silence from blogging , i'll make it in full english. Ehem, and of coursesssss la, there will be a tonne of grammatically wrong.
Okay, lets start !
Traveling from friend to lover is a road riddled with confusion and uncertainty. It’s not easy and though its a gradual process, falling in love with a friend is a big step. Depending on the friendship, it might twist into romantic love or it might even alter if things turn sour and unexpectedly head down an emotional affair.
One of the hardest steps might be the single one that tears you up inside, where you wonder if you should you tell your friend you love them. Feeling love towards another is like putting words to a sensation felt inside.
Don’t you just hate when you love someone and they’re with someone else? It’s complete torture and watching it unfold is misery as you can’t show that side to him because you’re going to have to pretend like everything’s okay, when in reality it’s not. Sure you might be risking a lot, but you really owe it to yourself to take a chance.
You have to take care of yourself and what you’re feeling because in order for good things to take place in your life, you’re going to need to be the one to move forward and take that risk. Real love has never seen boundaries so take a chance because you never know how much more can blossom between you two. I truly believe there are a few people in this life that we really connect with and if you’ve found your “soul mate”, don’t let your fears get in the way of going after someone you love. It would be terrible throughout the course of your friendship to continuously wonder and keep thinking what if and so on.
Love is all about being brave, about risk and putting your heart out there knowing that it’s not always going to be the way you want, but proves you were tough enough to truly express yourself. Not telling him though? That will be painful. It will eat you up and turn you into someone you’re not such as jealousy, anger, frustration, resentment,.
It’s not always going to be like a movie or a fairy-tale where it goes the way we plan. You have to take control of your heart and remember that life is about moments and time, so let everything you do take its course. You must be the friend you always are to him. If it’s meant to be, you both will find your way back to one another. Through the friendship he will realize what more you truly mean to him and perhaps that will guide his own heart to you.
You have to be prepared for if he doesn’t feel the same way towards you though. I hate to admit it, but that part is going to hurt a lot but I believe you will have to separate your love for him and your friendship towards him and just keep it at that. You can’t blur them. Be his friend through good and bad and love him the way you always do without expectations.